is the new trend

directly talking about people indirectly through blogs? haha mhm interesting i suppose. So i am currently happy, exhausted, anxious, scared and procrastinating life. Christmas was good, now that i'm older its more about giving than receiving and being together and happy. Although, there is one thing i received that i liked ;) ha. College is just around the corner, ekkkk. so excited yet so scared. I think i'm most afraid of loosing people i'm used to having around. The people you fought with for four years of highschool or even more and still loved more than anything. Mhmh moving on can be a bummer sometimes but that's the cycle of life. I hope those people don't forget about me, i hope they are still there when i call them crying at 2 in the morning, to talk me out of every bad decision. Speaking of decisions, ha where to decide? ugh! it's hard to make such a big decision, hoping in the end it was the right one. I think i'm most scared of being away from home, where i am free to do whatever i want, good or bad, whether it hurts me or helps me, no one will be there to hold my hand. So today is a beautiful day, i think i'll take a walk, get some coffee, think less, clear my mind and hope for the best. I'm starting to see the good in everything again, and it feels better, just please don't let me down :)