haha

I wish they knew the real you. They pretend you is what we fall in love with but honestly you can't hold onto that forever. You think you have everyone fooled, really i feel sorry for you. I wish the person I fell for was real but everything we thought we loved turned out to be nothing.

urban

underground is tonighttt! crazy things might happen haha just kidding :]
On an even bigger and better note, 4 days left of school! dang, all done.



Oh this summer....

weird

so my brother is in town and while spending time with him we went to one of his friends house's for a get together as they usually do while in town. It made me think how it will be when we come home from college. Who will we see, avoid, miss, love, or hope I never see again. ha I can't wait to see how things play out. growing up, never been more ready.

eh

I am an idiotttttt. thank god i'm leaving in 3 months
hah fresh slate!

goooodmorning,

fuck sore throats, pounding heads and me :[
and me for saying stupid things to stupid people.



haha yay for today, not.

mmhhm

So very tired. ehh, i feel like i have so much to say but maybe time has already run out and when i go to speak it seems nothing will ever come out.

I wish you knew, more than anything. This feeling between you and me.

:[

My stomach feels empty and i feel like crying. Feeling used is the worst.
I can't believe anything

hate is a strong word

but i reallly reallly really don't like you.

i feel

very accomplished! workworkwork, hopefully this is it paying off but everythingworth doing is worth it in the end i suppose.
mhmh i also hate when there is unspoken friction between people, it just throws stuff off :/ oh well


gooodnight babies<3

bust

You know those bad days that make you down and those other ones that make you feel like bad is a temporary comfort and great is back again. Well that great day seems to fool me, because the bad always comes back or maybe the great never wants to stay.

shame on me for trying to believe in something.

one of those

days where everything goes wrong.
ewww, i'm going insane.

so tired

of hearing things that let me down, make me sad and make me think "i told you so"
people who lie, cheat and have a lack of compassion are getting extremely old as well. What happened to do unto others as you would have them do unto you. Most of all besides all the bullshit, i'm tired and have no desire of moving forward. I'm sick of deadlines, full agendas, saying yes to everyone and everything and i'm sick of feeling empty at the end of the day because i've given myself away to please anything and everything. Breakdown mode sucks but at least its real. "The only thing that is certain is that nothing is certain at all."

ouch.

and just when you think you found someone who could never make you cry.
shit happpppens

:[

little bit

"the pressures on
both hearts beat like a metronon
both n'sync like a justin song
feels so right but it's just soo wrong"


obsessed with this songggg <3
interesting day i'd say ;]

electronica shmanica

as gossip girl said:

and even when you think you know it all, life may surprise you and you may even surprise yourself.
I am in love with chuck basss!



So sometimes i get this feeling as we all do, when you are driving listening to an epic song and you think of a person or memory or something of some significance. Well that happened to me today as it does often, thinking back to exactly a year ago and where i was, who i was, what i liked, how i thought, how i felt. Alot has changed, for the good or the bad i'm not sure. A year ago my life seemed as if it could have been a crazy teen movie or book, oh the things that went on. Time for new beginnings, rekindling of pasts and life to start for real. Be freaking excited.

so bad its goood

i over think everything and listen to sad music.

Before i move i'm writing a few significant people in my life a letter of importance or something i've wished i could have said.
goood idea hahaha

what happens?

when you become an impossible possibility.


think about it :(

why

is this the only ting i can never figure out.