high and dry

is that what you call a getaway? tell me what you got away with this time, 'cause I've seen more spine in jellyfish, more guts in 11 year old kids.

I realized it was already mid July and couldn't help but feel how odd of turns life often takes. About two years ago from this exact time things were different. My innocence still intact and my heart somewhat filled before I let myself go to something beyond its own. SIGHHHH, everything happens for a reason?

for being told

I'm an over achiever; I feel pretty empty inside. seems the achieved isn't sustaining me.

you're so good at letting me down so why are you trying to pick me up.

how do we ever really know what is good for us? What is authentic and really sustains us or whether or not it's just there for security and assurance. How is anything really ever known and why do we find ourselves questioning it? The standard for anything in life such as love, happiness or success are not measurable by scale but predetermined by others standards or experience. So how is truth for any of these things really ever consequently known for relevancy? Security is really what keeps us 'stable' and hopeful in what we think is sure and truth and all that we put into those mindsets. So what to do when you find yourself constantly questioning everything in life? Never stop questioning,challenging anything and everything is the only way to fully experience and gain from.

I waited but you never came
left jaded and full of shame
all my love was put into you
but it never grew, this is me without you
now that I'm gone